What a long three-month trek it's been for me to get to this post. It will most likely get rambly 😁 but I'll do my best, given the current circumstances.
I'll have to take you back to last year's December Solstice when I wrote
"Clean Slate" ~ as well as the follow-up post
"Fresh Air" ~ where I reported that my inner push to "get clean" was unbearably strong:
"I see this Gateway corridor as the space where I surrender every belief,
practice, connection, notion, intention etc.... This Gateway corridor
is also a sort of sanitiser radiating with Divine Ultra-Violet energies
to ensure that my slate is as clean as possible before emerging."
I was very clear in my intention to do just that, and wanted to emerge from that window really not attached to anything that did not serve my highest purpose. I was prepared to go all the way.
Some may remember that in 2019, I went through a massive purging of all energies that did not belong to me, including energies that I had willingly and with consent taken on over the years in the form of healing, initiations, activations etc (I wrote briefly about this in "Fresh Air"). It was an intense period of releasing, and I even stepped on a few people's toes as I politely declined to participate in the very same energies of activities that I was in the midst of determinedly releasing.
What followed after this intense energy expulsion was a growing sense of being more careful with what energies I allowed into my own field. Simultaneously, I also became more aware of the need to be responsible with my own energies ~ not to allow another to take my energy, nor to impose my own energy onto another person (typically in the form of "sending healing energies").
By the time December 2020 dawned, I knew I had to embark on the next compulsory phase of my "spring-cleaning" ~ to release everything else that did not serve the purpose of becoming more of my True Essence. As within, so without.
What is it they say? "Be careful of what you ask, you may just get it."
Well,
when I wanted that whatever-it-takes release during the 2020 December
Solstice, I definitely expected a lot of letting go. What I did not
expect was the extent of
the consequence. All that
releasing and disconnecting and surrendering resulted in a deep inner
Shift that occurred within a very short space of time. It's like I had new lenses through which I viewed not just the external, but also myself. My Spiritual Landscape had altered. This wasn't a "variation" or some "tweak", it was a very major landscape change.
This directly affected my blog. As those of you who have written to me personally will know, my blog is a
reflection of part of my Spiritual Journey, hence the reason why I
usually say to readers who write me, "Thank you for accompanying me on
this part of my Journey."
What I feature here from others as well as what I personally write, are
(mostly) in alignment with the path I am on. Sometimes you will see new
sources and new perspectives, while at other times I cease featuring
certain sources with whom I no longer resonate. My blog represents a
part of the nuances and experiences that I go through, as well as my
thoughts on how I'm perceiving the unfolding. It can be seen as a small
mirror of the Spiritual Landscape that I'm travelling through.
(Since
the "proper" inception of this blog in 2013, it has seen two different Spiritual Landscapes ~ with each change corresponding to a
personal Shift ~ what it started off with, and one in 2015. This would be the third.)
Although my landscape change is drastic, the Authentic part of me knew and understood what was happening, and what needed to unfold next. It's as if there's so much Clarity that presented, and I finally found answers that made so much sense to questions I had had over the past couple of years. Paradoxically, I also felt complete acceptance with not knowing the answers to some other questions ("I don't know" are three very liberating words).
As explained earlier, my blog reflects a part of my Spiritual Landscape as I journey along my path. Since I am now traversing my 3rd landscape from its inception, my blog will have to change in tandem with my journey. This new landscape comprises undoubtedly the most controversial outlooks I have ever encountered. After more than 2 months of trying to see how this would translate on to my blog, I still do not know the best way to proceed.
At the same time, I have been poised over the starting point of my Inner Journey which has already been continuously postponed for more than two months. The
overriding need to embark on this has now morphed into an
inner voice too loud to ignore. Each day that I do not commit to this is detrimental to me in some manner. This Inner Journey demands to be fully experienced and lived. As much as possible.
These two situations ~ independent yet totally related ~ has made it clear to me that I need to take a break. To continue working on my blog would mean I'm unable to commence my Inner Journey, a delay which I can no longer afford to bear. And even if I were to continue, I haven't yet decided/don't know how best to proceed.
I will therefore be going on a hiatus blog-wise for an undetermined period of time to navigate this Inner Journey as well as to work out how I intend to move forward with my blog. I don't know where I'm heading, I have no idea what I will be doing in the not-too-distant future, and I have no plans. I'm going to take it one step at a time. I should have a clearer picture when I return.
I wish each and every one of you a Beautiful Life in alignment with your Divinity always, and may each day be a true Joy to live. See you when I emerge 😊
Namaste & Bright Blessings! 💜💛💖