This post has been brewing for some time now, but I've never gotten round to set aside the time to put my thoughts down in cyber ink.
Nova Biscotti's message (posted here) yesterday was the much-needed prod in the ribs to finally get this done and free up the blocked energy that was waiting to flow again.
In the early days of Crimson Circle, I followed the monthly guidance and teachings of Tobias. I would be mulling over a question, and during the following Shoud (channel), Tobias would answer my silent query. I never missed a single Shoud, right up until the last one where Tobias left for good, to reincarnate as a walk-in/braided Soul (my last and lasting question is...WHY??...).
One of the first things I learnt is that during this lifetime of active Ascension,
I am/you are the "designated Ascendee". What this means is that in this current incarnation of ours, this aspect or expression of our Soul in this Lifetime, we are going through this Ascension process on behalf of ALL our previous Selves in past lives. We are the salvation of our own "stranded" past Selves, we are the ones who are Ascending on behalf of all our past Selves, thereby allowing ALL aspects of our previous incarnations to literally set things right and return to our Divine Blueprint. Of course, over the years I came across more information that deals in-depth with this "rescuing ourselves" process, but let me just stick to this for now.
Using this "designated ascendee" status, there are two issues I'd like to bring up.
Inner Pain
We are carrying the inner pain of not just this lifetime, but of all our unhealed lifetimes. Think about it for a moment. Not just this lifetime, but all our previous lifetimes. Original "separation" from Source, when Lemuria went under, when Atlantis was destroyed, being burnt at the stake, being tortured or murdered for speaking our truth, for being healers, for being spiritual, all the never-ending wars...and on and on. And then we have this lifetime...dysfunctional families, scarred childhoods, waking up to hard truths... you get the idea.
Is it any wonder then that we are hurting beyond description from all that accumulated miasmic trauma? This deep-rooted pain, which we carry in our very cells/DNA, is something we have tasked ourselves to release in this lifetime. Not easy, but do it we must. Oftentimes we need several cycles or sessions of healing and releasing to completely clear the miasm, so one round is usually insufficient.
Add to that energies of the past three years, which are all about releasing, letting go, repeat...until the last vestiges of pain in whatever form are gone, forever. Being squeaky clean allows us to connect more authentically with our own Divinity, via the Heart Centre. That is why several very good and authentic Ascension guides urge us to go inwards, heal and let go, let go, let go...so vital in the ultimate healing process. Holding on to the pain, whether consciously or sub-consciously, can only hinder our forward progress at best, or misguide us at worst.
This inner pain, if left unhealed and unreleased, will unleash itself in various disguises, masquerading as arrogance, righteousness, unworthiness, martyr-complex, anger/rage, blame...etc. All these are simply various expressions of inner pain, unchecked or unacknowledged. And as we can see when we look around our own Lightworker community, there's plenty of all that flying around in a crazy frenzy.
This year of 2015, the inner pain in all of us is being brought forth and presented right in front of our own faces, for us to take action. And we need to get it right ~ each time we are presented with the surfacing of our own inner pain, how we respond is critical to our own growth. Do we lash out, or do we feel the pain, acknowledge it, and release it? If we are serious about our own spiritual growth, then we will respond from a place of higher consciousness, thereby enabling us to take another step forward. If we respond with limited conscousness, then in limited consciousness we will stay, until the next time this pain presents itself again. And with these dead-serious energies, the time-lapse between presentations get shorter.
Best to get dead-serious ourselves and do our inner work, especially if we are supposed to be the ones to assist others "when the time comes".
To be continued in Part 2...